I awoke this morning to the blethering voices on the radio mixing with the remains of my dreams. This was not a good combination. It was just after six, my bleary eyes looked at the brightness outside and wished to climb on the bike in the early stillness. My muscles were however making clear their protests. I rose, went back, pondered, rose again and sat staring out through the open window. The dream remained in parts, just how was a friend, not seen for 20 years on that bus/van/train thing last night? What was he saying, why were we wherever we were? Radio 3 soothed my mind as I pondered. In spite of the sun my thoughts became dismal. After all I was still me! As the crows nodded while patrolling what they consider their park I mused on the wasted years, the ineptness and failure that is my life. It was then a memory of how God had chosen to love me in spite of all this came to mind. Long ago he made clear his love to me, useless, inept, cretinous sinner that I am, and had proved it so many times.
It was a good thought.
Foolishly cheered I then sauntered around on the bike for some minutes as my body screamed "NO!" To stop my muscles (I use that word loosely) seizing up I then strolled across the park and around the almost empty town. How the sun brightens everything, especially when the town is empty. I made it home and fell asleep soon enough in a vain effort to please the body. The hulk was not pleased and required yet more sleep after what laughingly I called 'lunch.'
My head continued to carry the thought that Jesus loved me. How incredible! Only I can tell how bad I am, yet he knows there is much worse inside, I canny do anything that will surprise him, yet Jesus gave his life for me.
It is only when I allow myself to forget this, by fussing about less important things, that I find myself swamped by the world. What a clown.
The amazing truth is that it is not that we loved God but that he loved us, and gave himself for us! The death of Jesus washes away sins, all our wrongs. No wonder Christians should be happy.
Just imagine what I would be like if he had not intervened in my life? Put your trust in Jesus, nothing and no-one else brings abundant life!